400 pages, Random House UK
Review by Bill Kirton
There are two things about this book that
might make some people decide not to bother reading it. The first is that it’s
about sport. The fact that it won a top British Sports Book Award in 2012 makes
no difference; some people just don’t read sports books. The second thing makes
it even less palatable: it’s not just about sport, it’s about football of the
soccer variety and, as everyone knows, soccer players are spoiled, overpaid
thugs with an inflated sense of their own worth. But this book transcends
football, transcends sport. It’s the story of a likeable, gifted, seemingly
grounded individual who suffered from depression and it leads us through the tangled
maze of his mind as his illness dragged him inexorably down to the point at
which, on November 10th, 2009, he stepped in front of a train.
In the early years of the century, Robert
Enke was one of the best goalkeepers in the world. As well as playing for clubs
in the Austrian and German leagues, he also played in three other top European
sides: Barcelona,
Benfica and Fenerbahce. He played for his country at junior and senior level and
was scheduled to be Germany’s
number one in the 2010 World Cup. He was young, handsome, wealthy and in a
secure, loving marriage. In other words, he was living what should have been a
dream life but, as this account of it shows so powerfully, the dream was too often
nightmarish. The writer notes tellingly that his suicide, at the age of 32,
wasn’t really a result of a free choice. ‘The death of a depressive,’ he
writes, ‘is never a free decision. The illness narrows perception to the extent
that the sufferer no longer knows what it means to die. He thinks it just means
getting rid of the illness.’
The irony is that the book takes the place
of one which Enke and the author were supposed to be writing together. They’d
been friends for years and Reng had access to his diaries and to many other
sources which allowed him to record the impact Enke had on those around him and
piece together the contradictions, the moods and even the thought processes of
his subject. The material is handled with care, honesty and one could even say
with love, and it gives us a moving account of the life of a complex,
intelligent, caring individual who was haunted by a darkness which resisted
attempts by psychiatrists, friends and a loving wife to offer ways to combat
it.
Depression isn’t just sadness. Enke and his
wife had a daughter who was born with a heart defect and died at the age of
two. Naturally enough, the effect of such an event was disastrous for both of
them and yet it was only one of the demons that spread their poison through his
mind. It’s too easy to identify an event we can all sympathise with and make
the seemingly logical link: event-sadness-suicide. But, as Reng reminds us,
there are more deaths from depression-related suicide every day than there are
from road accidents.
More complexities are added to this
analysis of the condition by the nature of Enke’s job. In a soccer team, the
goalkeeper is unique. He’s the only player allowed to handle the ball and also
the only one whose mistakes are usually far more costly than any made by
players in other positions. In a way, it’s a negative position. The object of
the game is to score goals but the keeper is there to prevent them. As the last
line of defence it’s also important for him to be (or at least seem to be) calm, in control, unlikely
to panic. Any sign of stress or frailty sends a message to the rest of the team
that he’s vulnerable. And goalkeepers aren’t allowed to be vulnerable. Some of
the most fascinating and heart-rending passages of the book come near the end
when his wife and friends are watching him play a game, knowing that he’s in a
deep depression, seeing the truth of his body language and facial expressions
while others interpret them differently. To the uninitiated, Robert Enke seems
to be in ice-cool control of the situation.
The book begins and ends with the suicide.
At the start it’s the helplessness, bewilderment and anxiety of those close to
him that’s stressed; at the end, the pace is such that both the reader and
those same people are dragged inexorably towards what they all know is to be a
tragic outcome. The writing is skilful, Reng’s love and compassion are
self-evident, but the force that overwhelms everything is that of the dark,
incomprehensible monster that harried Enke to his death. This is not simply the
story of an individual, it’s a frightening chronicle of how depression
overwhelms all else, fragments and distorts values, undermines everything that
makes life so precious.
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